Dog: Beau (Chihuahua) – Damascus, OR (Oct 20, 2005 – Oct 19, 2014)
My deepest condolences to all of you that have lost a beloved pet. I lost my precious baby Beau on Sunday, October 19, 2014. He would have been 9 yesterday. I am so glad I got to be by his side in his last moments but it was THE hardest thing I have ever had to go through.
It all started Friday evening, I picked him up and noticed he was breathing very heavy and fast. And his heart was beating very loudly. You could literally hear it vibrating and beating from a few feet away from you as he lay next to me.
The next morning I took him in and they told me he had a very bad heart murmur and sent him home with a cough suppressant. As morning came, I woke up in somewhat of a panic hoping he was ok. I had him crawl out from under the bed and he seemed to be doing worse from the day before. I quickly called the ER vet again and they said to bring him in.
They confirmed that yes, he had taken a turn for the worst. The day before they had taken x rays a few blood samples and said everything else was ok. But didn’t tell me that his heart murmur was a level 6 until the second time I brought him in! Level 6 is the worst case!
We then had to make the hardest decision of my life. Putting my baby down so that he wouldn’t continue to suffer from his beginning stages of heart failure. I do not regret being with him in his last moments but those last few moments went from my little baby wagging his little tail as we walked up to him and said that we loved him so much to him slumping over and passing away.
It was so very hard that I screamed, cried and nearly fainted. I am very thankful and believe 100% that my little beau came to visit me in my sleep that very night to say goodbye. It felt 100% real.
As I lay there asleep on my back, he walked across the top of my pillow and down to my feet, looked up at me and I called out his name with such joy, he ran up to me, kissed my face several times and I pet him and hugged him and told him I loved him. His fur and everything about it felt so real and warm. I then lifted up my covers for him to come cuddle as he use to do but… he couldn’t. He had to go….
I woke up immediately after and had such joy and such heartache at the same time. I am so glad he came to tell me goodbye but I won’t ever be the same without him.
Mama loves you so much Beau!! I miss u dearly. One day we will see each other again. You’ll always be in my heart.